Hi guys!!!


Its the end of sec 3, starting of sec 4. For those that didn't perform as well as u hoped (yes i am talking to myself and of course, my many loves, Brenda Ng Shih Teng) cheer up!!! For u hav to pick urself up and make a final dash to the O lvl's!!!!! Don't give up on urself!!! If u want to convince others to believe in you being able to make it, u wud hav to convince urself FIRST. How do you expect someone to trust you, when you don't trust yourself? =))


So, a quick recap on what's happening recently. Good and bad stuff. I'd rather talk about the bad first.

Its jst abt, my dumb result that are somewhat suprisingly low, that caused all these hassle. MY PARENTS WANT TO PULL ME OUTTA MY A.MATH CLASS. NO MORE MR KELVIN NG. AND THAT SUX. Now what sux even more is she, wanting to put me in a 1-to-1 tuition. And that's jst worse. Waaay worse. I can tell you this, even b4 that tuition teacher even come, i'd probably jst hate her to the core cuz i'm not prepared to have another teacher that can "take over mr ng's place."

To me, mr ng is my 2nd dad, my best friend, my pride, my honour, my-everything. He was the one that gave me the courage to speak out to the public. He was the one that motivated me to learn. He was the one who was able to giv me my presentation skills. (yes i copied his style of talking and presentation) "Why is mr ng everything to me?" you ask. Now I'd tell you my answer. Its very simple. Because he is the only person that hav truly praised me and made me feel useful. I still remember, when i first joined the class, feeling all lost and messed up. He told me, "Wesley, believe in urself. Mr Ng places his faith in you and so u shud too. U're the man." And throughout the lesson, whenever he asked me to answer certain questions, he would giv tons of compliments and i can see it, that those were true words, not some hypocritical and sarcastic "wow, very good very good."

He said the words, he meant them, and i'm proud of it. From then on, i respected him more than anyone else. More. Than. Anyone. Else. I mean it. And so, mr ng progressed on from a teacher to me, to a friend of mine. His jokes are really super funny, i enjoyed EVERY single lesson. Oh, and i think he is only one of the few who can make me feel happy. As in true happiness. Not that sort of mask u put on usual days that smile very fakely(okay heck away with "fakely". I KNOW that there isn't such a word.) to make others feel at ease. Whenever i laughed during the lesson, it felt nice. Real nice. And so, i am proud that i have a tuition teacher like him. I'd say he's one of the best. The best of the best.

And so, now, i'm going to get pulled out, I cant sleep at all. I keep feel like crying that I'm actually going to leave Mr Ng. I. Cant. Accept. It. Period. That's all. But I ain't going to cry. Mr Ng doesn't cry. He maintains a positive attitude of life. And so am I. I'm strong. I'm not gonna cry cuz that'll make me a real coward. I'm going to be like Mr Ng. Even when i shut my eyes, i hear his teaching. But it seems like, its getting further and further away. Its drifting away, i cant.. i cant seems to hear his voice as clearly as the time drags longer. I want to reach my hand out, and grasp his voice and keep it with me. But i cant, it'll jst... jst wisp past my finger tips and when i open my eyes again, there is only darkness. No voice, no mr ng, nothing. Plain darkness. And i tell u, this feeling sux to the core. I want Mr Ng to teach me forever, but its not possible. My physical state knows that but it jst seems that my inner state refuses to believe that fact and doesn't want to let go.

In this world, there isn't a word such as forever. Its jst a word derived to.. "decorate the pain and harsh sufferings of this world." Mr Ng cant teach forever, so get a move on, Wesley. Jst get on with it. I'm serious.

Alright, now to the brighter part of life. Hmmmm, I'm in a relationship. Wow. With Brenda Ng Shih Teng. Hawt, I say. Pure Hawt and adorable and princess-ey. Lolx. okayyy, i know i know, Getting too sweet right? awhh lols. its jst toooo bad. =)) Hahahs she sits beside me in tuition and we sms like tons lols =)) We went out to cinileisure once and watched 500 days to summer. Which was super funnayeeee. Den we went to take neoprints, which is one of the greatest items i treasuer cuz she looked waay gorgeous in there. woots <33. Lol, but jst that dis is abit too.... haiz don't wan comment, say too much my mouth will stink.

Hahahs tomorrow hav no school but the others all hav. TOO BAD i say =)) okayy gotta go. Cyaaa guys!!!




Siging off,
Wesley




P.S, Here's the quote for today!! :We cannot see our reflection in running water. It is only in still water that we can see.

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